Unexplained Thoughts

Unexplained thoughts
-Collide-
     Like a train and car, my
-Fatality-
     Will come at my own hand. . if I desire.
-Futile-
   Words ecape my mouth like -
-Sheet-
     Of music paper with disoraganizedd
-Notes-
     That screech in my ear, until it bleeds.
                 
                      I cannot hear anything
                 For everything is
                                  scatterd.
              No matter where I go I abandoned for what.
                                  This?